Poetic changes

          For those of you who have been keeping up with the poetry I have been posting, I would like to explain that I have lived in much depression, fear, self hatred, and dark desires throughout my entire life. These things began around the age of 8. By the time I had reached the not so ripe young age of 10, I felt that I was ready to die. By the time I was 15, I told people life had already come to an end. I had lived my life, I was old, it was time to go home and be free where I belonged. This in fact was not truth, but was the feeling I had inside. I felt as though my soul itself were very aged. As though I came from another time, not meant for the world I was born into. Not meant to be here where I was placed. Please understand these emotional down times, and the pain I have felt inside, the darkness that has swallowed not only my heart, but the light from the very core of my soul many times through my life. The hormones have helped a lot, centering me more mentally, though the pain is still locked inside. My writing style, if you have noticed the dates upon the poetry, has changed greatly throughout time, and none of these are what I wrote years ago. Again my writing style will be changing as I feel a release that has never been given to me. I feel a comfort I have yearned for throughout life, believing that it was real, but never believing it existed in this world. As my writing style changes I hope you will all continue to read and enjoy my poetry as it is an expression of the deepest understanding within my the very core of my being.