This is a record of my transition to show the changes made through the progress of becoming the woman I was truly born to be. My given name is Brandan DeWitt. My heart's true name is Rachyl Marie DeWitt.
June 11, 2014
Dreams : Should we ignore or dig deeper?
We all have dreams. Most of us also know that dreams are a very tear in the fabric of our thought process. Dreams come from a deeper place. Our subconscious understandings, our feelings, the very thoughts that do not surface within us may make up our dreams at night. I have considered this more closely recently as some things have shed a different possibility upon dreams I once had. In recent events, I have had people in my dreams more. Well, a person. For more than two nights in a row. This has only ever occurred at one other point in my life. At a time before, when I was a younger teenager, I had many many dreams, every night about the same young woman. Brown hair, around shoulder length. I cannot now remember all of her features as I used to, but in my mind, when thinking of this, I decided for myself this must have been a dream woman of mine. However, I find other things even more so attractive than this dream girl had been. It was not until recently when someone had entered my dreams that it occurred to me this does not happen to me. It is a very rare thing for my dreams to involve people unless they are negative, hateful dreams of things that have been done to hurt me. I rarely dream good things. I decided to stop and consider things differently. My question is simple. Was this a dream girl I was seeing? Or was it myself? A reflection of what I held inside, locked away with no ability to escape at the time. I am starting to think we should look into our dreams. There is always a reason why dreams stand out to us. Some we cannot remember. Others we cannot forget. I spent many many years searching, comparing in some ways the features of the young woman I had seen in my dreams to those around me. Wondering, did such a person exist? It was no-one I had ever seen. Nor was it someone I knew. But every night, there she was. As though waiting for me. It was not necessarily a romantic thing, though it brought peace into my heart. We were almost identical. Physical attributes being the only thing truly separating us. We were as though mirrored. In our thoughts, ideas, actions. It was as though dreaming about a young woman who was exactly me only female. In turn, looking back recently, I am starting to believe that the reason for these dreams, was to let her inside. Let her come home to a place where she belonged. I am starting to believe she was me. Maybe we should look back into our dreams. Consider different possibilities as the feelings they produce emerge from within. Maybe there we shall find answers we had never thought to discover. I hope this helps you to look into things you would not normally have considered, as I myself never considered this possibility until recently.
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