Handling things

          I am finding that though I may change in some ways, life does not. Life shall continue throughout our best or worst moments. It has always been this way and will remain so. I have learned to open my mind to a difference in attitude towards life itself. Since the hormones began I have found myself in precarious positions within my life. These places I have found myself have caused great happiness, as well as great sadness. As we change we must also grow into ourselves in a better fashion. The depression I once felt is still very real, I still blame myself more easily than I blame others, I still have very dark thoughts at times. However, I've come to a point where I am realizing, we all must make mistakes and live our lives according to ourselves. I have already made the most important dream come true, and I have learned much courage, and a minor amount of confidence. While the pain of life remains great, I have reminded myself that the happiness and love within will continue to shine. I am not a bad person, nor am I perfect. However, I am accepting myself more now than before, and rather would like to accept the pain as a mere lesson in life whenever these lessons may apply. I will continue to see beauty in even the darkest of places as I learn to fit myself into a place where I belong. I will find my way. Handling things in life becomes very difficult, even downright disastrous at times, yet for me it seems I am able to accept and handle it better. I am centered at this time in my life. That which is good that I have received from others shall always shine in my heart.