I'm Back

          Hello there, it has been a long time since I posted. Doesn't mean I haven't had thoughts of posting, just haven't gotten to things like I should have. I have been in and out of some darker places in my mind and truly lost myself in another part of my life. I cannot say I was not happy, but I cannot say it was right for me either. For years I have felt that passion and after a year alone I wanted it again. I thought I had found it in someone but turns out I had not. At a point later someone came back to my life who had been the true passion in my heart for so long that I longed for from someone. Unfortunately things do not always work out as we hope. Things have been reverted to the same state I was in before. Alone. This is okay as I should have remained more focused on who I am in the first place. It is not to say I should not have given my love, but not allowed myself to be all consumed by my passion for pleasing another. We must first love ourselves and give ourselves happiness before another can be happy with us or even around us. I have heard this my whole life and still always fight to put another's happiness ahead of my own. I cannot do that anymore as when I lose myself I tend to lose what I lost myself in. Confusing huh? Yeah, live it and see how confusing it is. I will not necessarily be posting as much as before, as I have decided to slow down with the picture records to a monthly duty, though I will start pushing myself to get back into the posting and writing as it is important to me. I hope that people will continue to read as I try to regain what spirit I had lost. Thank you.